I watched my son jump around and be himself today. It was bittersweet. I looked at him thinking, he has no idea that tonight is his last night as an only child. His last moments alone with his mommy. I wanted to cry. I want to cry now.
How can I be so split in two. One of me completely devoted to Isaac and the other completely devoted to our baby girl. How can I want both…a new baby and no changes in our life.
I wonder how this will effect Isaac and his personality. We will never know Baby Girl without a brother. But who would she be without him. Who will she be?
Isaac had a moment today of yelling and stating that everything in his room was his. I don’t really know what started the yelling, but I have a feeling despite all our trying to prepare him, it’ll be something we have to deal with from now on.
I wanted this post to be about how excited I am to meet my daughter. How I’ve struggled all week with the waiting. But instead I got emotional and now I need to rest…we’ve got a baby to welcome in a few hours!