I HATE being sick.  Absolutely hate it.  Zach finally gave me his cold.  It started as this pain between my shoulder and my neck.  The next day it was in my neck at the base of my head.  Yesterday it was in my left nostril.  Today it’s filled my whole head.  I’m stuffy, sneezing, sniffy, snotty…my head hurts, my ears hurt, my eyes water….I’m just unsettled and sick!

We were going to have champagne tonight….but we’ve been invited to a party.  Teddy is like my little brother, I’ve known him since he was born.  Our families have just been connected.  He is in the Marines, and is being deployed to Afganistan.  So, we are going to show our support.   But this means I have to go look presentable.

Despite somethings going on in my life, I’m pretty happy today, even with being sick.  Happy things:

  1. I sat outside with the dogs today and ate lunch.  It’s was a beautiful day!  Warm sun, but cool breeze.  I could have stayed out there all day.  It’s made me happy.
  2. Zach got to go to work at noon today, so he slept in and kept me company this morning.
  3. The microwave is fixed!!! Finally, and now we don’t know what to do with it.
  4. Dad is working on the steps.  And even though it’s costing me a fortune, which is giving me a slight heart-attack, they are looking beautiful and so clean!
  5. Dad has been a pleasure to have around the house this week and is now even working on organizing the garage.  🙂
  6. I’m going to lunch with Brooke and Taylor, okay, this isn’t for a few more weeks, but it still makes me happy….if Brooke and I can make things work, then so can Stacy and I.
  7. I get to go to Nashville with my husband.
  8. Jess is having a baby.
  9. Susie is coming to town.
  10. I had a great sandwich for lunch today….you’ll have to watch for the picture and instruction in the recipe section tomorrow or Sunday.
  11. God is in control. 🙂

I have to go get ready.  Happy Leap Year Day to you all!



I have never dealt with a warranty situation until now, but I’ve determined for the amount of effort and frustration warranties cost, I don’t know if I ever want one again.  Okay, this is not 100% true.  My HONDA warranty on my Civic years ago was wonderful, it didn’t require any work from me.  This warranty on the microwave on the other hand, has cost me a lot.

The low down.

November 9, 2007: Purchase microwave from BestBuy.  Once installed turns out to be the quietest microwave in the world.  You can’t even tell it is working.

Thursday January 17, 2008:  Microwave just stops working.  No power what-so-ever.  We call GE…we’ve only had the thing two months.  Soonest they can get anyone out is in a week.  And we would need to be home from 8 to noon.

Thursday January 24, 2008: Tech shows up.  Looks at microwave, but until he replaces a certain part and gets power to it,  he can’t see if anything else is wrong.  I tell him about how quiet it is.  He thinks that is a fan issue, so he orders that too.  It’s going to take the parts a week to get to us, so we have to reschedule and again someone is going to have to be home from 8 to noon.

Friday February 1, 2008: Second Tech (#51) shows up.  He does not introduce himself or say hi or anything.  With the screen door still closed I explain that I’d like to keep the dogs out and let them smell him and then they will go lay down.  Otherwise they will bark the whole time.  He doesn’t say anything.  I open the door and point out the parts that were ordered.  And he in a discussed tone says well, what is wrong?  It has no power.  What did he order?  I don’t know.  Like I know the ins and outs of a microwave.  If I did, I would fix the stupid thing.  This tech bad talks the other tech.  Gets a call on his walkie in which is says he is having a rough morning and can’t talk right now.  When Zach gets home, he refuses to talk to him.  He yells at me because the microwave rack that came with the microwave that hasn’t worked in two weeks is actually IN the microwave.  After an hour or so, he notifies us that he has to order new parts and we will have to reschedule.  Can we get a Monday or Tuesday?  No, it take the parts a week.  Great.

We immediately called GE.  The guy really creeped me out.  I had to call Zach home I felt so uncomfortable.  We asked that he not be the one to come out again.  They said they would make that note, but could not guarantee anything.

Friday February 8, 2008: Again, I have to be at home between 8 and noon.  I have a conference call I have to be on between 10 and 11.  Get a call from GEs voice automated system at 10:30.  Immediately call the number back with my cell phone.  It’s automated and says it’s logged my call, but I can’t speak to anyone.  Zach gets home and calls GE customer number, all within 10 or 15 minutes of the original call.  They say because we weren’t home (WHICH I WAS!!!), the tech is no longer in the area and will not be out today.  WHAT???!?!???  They never once said, if you don’t answer the phone, we won’t come.  In the course of the conversation, Zach finds out that they were sending the same tech (#51) that we had requested not come to the house again.  WHAT???  Zach is mad, I’m furious.  After going round and round, they say they can get someone out on Monday.  At the time I had things to do and couldn’t be around then, and had to be a work all week, so we scheduled for Friday.  Within 20 minutes, I figured a way to be home and called them back.  She explained that she needed to talk to the dispatcher and get back to me.  I said, “OK, but you have to call me today, so I know to stay home on Monday, otherwise I’ll be going to work.”  “Okay, or you can call us back, we are open until 8PM eastern time.”  At 4:55, Mountain Time I call.  They are closed. I can’t reach anyone.  I check the status of my next service call….it’s Friday the 15th.

Monday February 11, 2008: I run my errarnds for work and get home to find a door hanger saying that GE was here and I wasn’t.  WHAT? No one called.  I check my messages and I actually have one from a real person, the tech, asking if I was home.  Oops!  Messed that one up.  Now I re-schedule for Friday.

Friday February 15, 2008: New tech comes to the house.  He installs all new parts and notifies us that it still isn’t working.  He is going to have to order new parts.  The last two parts that are possible to be replaced.  At least this guy was nice and introduced himself when he came to the door.  One more week.

Thursday February 21, 2008: Same tech from the week before comes.  Installs new parts.  One is faulty.  System still doesn’t work.  Has to reorder faulty piece.  I hear him on the phone with “GE” and can tell he is also upset with the situation.  ARGH.  He is going to order extras of the faulty part and says he should have in the first place.  Suggests I call GE and see if they will approve a exception and replace the whole unit.

I call GE and talk to the nicest person ever.  She says she will call back in 48 hours with the decision of the exceptions board.

Monday February 25, 2008: I call and speak to GE.  They haven’t called me and it’s been more than 48 hours.  I was due for a call back today.  We weren’t approved.  I ask about the policies on if they do determine it is faulty after the next visit.  And it will be a whole other week….if it’s deemed unrepairable!  I get a bit frustrated and the lady tells me it’s my fault it has taken so long because I missed two appointments.  WHAT?! That is not what has happened and I explain that to her.  She says, “Please Hold” and puts me on hold for 10 minutes before I hung up and called back.  Next lady was a bit nicer and at this point I just want them to listen to me.  I told her I wanted the record to be accurate and that I did not miss two appointments.  I was here for one and GE never showed up and the other one I never knew about.  I don’t know if she really wrote it down, probably not.  But at least she was nice about it.   I was fine when I first called, but it upset me quite a lot and now my neck hurts.  Stress!

Eric is scheduled for Thursday February 28.  He has ordered three of the last part.  I hope, hope, hope it will be fixed.  I just want to be able to re-heat my banana bread. 🙂

Let’s see….if if costs GE $100 every time a tech comes to my house and they’ve been here 7 time this Thursday….plus at least $20 for every over night package, that brings the grand total to $820, plus the cost of the actual parts.  Plus the cost of the microwave orignally, this darn thing has cost over $1000.  That is crazy!  I’m just glad I haven’t had to pay for the repairs and I have to keep reminding myself of that.  And I’m lucky enough to work from home, so it really isn’t that big of an inconvenience.  I can’t imagine if I was still teaching!


Oh my! I knew I hadn’t written in a while, but I didn’t realize it had been 15 days! Crazy.

I guess not a lot has been going on or maybe a lot has and I’ve just been too busy. 🙂 Zach has two online classes and has had tons of homework, so I’m getting kicked off the computer more. And really, what can I say…at least he work on something productive.

I’m hoping to update my Project 365 today…Zach has to work late, so I have a bit of time to kill.

I just received a phone call from my principal from last year. It was an accident, but it was good to talk to her. She said she misses me, but who wouldn’t? 🙂 I know a lot of the people I worked with last year can’t stand her, but you know, we all have our problems and things we do well and things we do poorly. I have to say, running a school, all employees and students, is not easy and she always has a smile on her face and that means something.

But really, none of this is what brought me to WordPress today… 🙂

Apprehensive….that’s the best word I can find to describe how I’ve felt about a lot of things lately.

I want to have kids and be a mother, but recently the idea seems to scare me. The name change. Having mom and dad be grandma and grandpa. Having someone else to worry about. So much can happen….miscarriages, still borns, infants dying, children being killed, teenagers injuring themselves. Maybe I don’t want to get pregnant. Maybe I don’t want to have kids. It seems they can only make life more stressful or more loved, depending on your thinking. I haven’t talked to Zach about this, I’m trying to remain calm. But inside I’m freaking out.

I think it’s all stemming form the fact that my good friend is about to have her baby. The little one is due on St. Patty’s Day and she is the closest person I’ve been to, who has been pregnant. And this is her first baby and I think part of me puts myself in her shoes and that’s when I freak out. I mean it’s still something I want, but not, all at the same time. How is that possible?

I contacted Stacy the other day. I wasn’t going to. I felt it was time she put forth some effort. I seem to always be the one to salvage and repair things. Does that mean I’m the only one who cares? I don’t know. It took her two days to respond, but she did and agrees we should talk. So, we are having lunch/margarita’s on Saturday. I’m a bit nervous about this. How is this sort of meeting suppose to go down? I don’t want it to be one sided. I don’t want to just get mad at her. I want her to understand where I’m coming from. I want to hear her side of everything. I want things better, but does she? What if she won’t talk (High possibility from what I know about her)? What if she lets me talk, but doesn’t really listen (usually happens)? What if we just blow up at each other and nothing is resolved? This “meeting” is going to happen, so all I can ask is for your prayers that all goes well and we can come to a mutual resolution.

Nashville. Right, what does this have to do with apprehension? Well, let me explain a bit. One of my big customers is being passed over to a new group in our company this year. Traditionally, the rep and my VP go to this customers be meeting every year. I went one year, but that was because it was here. I seem to be the best at the meeting, because I work closest and know everything about the customer so can answer there questions, but I didn’t work for the company last year, I was teaching, so I didn’t go. Well, this year, it has recently transitioned, since the new group didn’t have anyone to fill my shoes at first, I’ve stayed on until June and am now slowly passing things off to the person who will handle my roles. Because this is such a recent transition and I really know the most about the customer, they want me to go to the big meeting in Nashville in May. I know, people travel for business all the time, but it’s freaking me out.

First, I’ve only been away from Zach for one night since we were married almost four years ago. I know it’s not good to be so dependent on someone, but I don’t know if I want that to change. I like sleeping next to him. I’ve toyed with the idea of him joining me out there at some point, but the fact of the matter is, I will be busy most of the time.

Second….the meeting is Friday and Saturday….setup has to be done on Thursday by 2….soonest I could get in is 2:30, so I have to fly in on Wednesday and leave Sunday, which means more time away from home. If I can get Zach out and talk them into letting me extend my flight to a later date, I might stay and be a tourist for a few days, although I know no one in Nashville or TN for that matter and I’ve never been to the south, so I’d have completely no clue what to do.

Third….I don’t fly well. It makes me nervous and to fly by myself…..crap. I don’t know if I’ve flown since we got married. And then I’ll have to catch a shuttle or taxi to the hotel and I’ve never in my life done that and how do get back to the airport and what if I get lost and how much money do I have to take, how do I take my laptop through security, what do I do after I’m “off” and I’m only at the hotel and I’m by myself? If you know me at all, you’ll realize these seem like stupid questions. I’m independent, resourceful…I’ve got my act together, or at least that’s what the world thinks. As you can see, I’m scared to death and I’ve got two more months to stress about it. Great!

See, I’ve had a lot on my mind the past few weeks, just haven’t taken the time to write about it.


I don’t normally remember my dreams in the morning, but lately I’ve remembered my dream almost everyday. They’ve been weird. Here is a snip of a few of the dreams I still remember.

A few weeks ago I was “Quantum Leaped” to a huge Dave Matthews Band concert with Grant, a friend from college. We were with all of his friends and then some old Dorchestra friends of mine showed up. We were looking for Susie and went to the bathroom. There Susie was, and then Susie and I went and sat in the stands with some of my students from last year. When we left the stands, I had to warn people to get off the stairs as I had a flash and they were going to die when the stairs collapsed. The stairs did collapse and we went back to hang with Grant and his friends and Vanessa was there, another one of my students from last year. She was annoying very, but I just laughed and said you just have to get used to her. Then the concert was over and Grants friends said I could stay with them, but turns out we were at Dartmouth, so I just stayed with Susie, but we never got to her place before I woke up. In my dream, I knew I was married, but Zach and no one in my family was around. It was strange.When I thought about it later, it was like I was surrounded with people from every “school,” I’d been a part of. Hmmm….

A few days ago I ended up at the house of this couple that I went to high school with. I wasn’t friends with them, in fact, I don’t even know if they know who I am or was. I was mad at Zach and they wouldn’t let me go home, for my own good.

I’m sure this was spurred by the fact that we ran into them at GoodTimes the other day, but don’t know why I couldn’t leave.

Two nights ago, I had to go to this sports place to film a clip to be shown during the Superbowl next year. I couldn’t find the place because the roads were covered in mud, so my UPS guy from work carried me. Once I was there, they kept telling me to just say something, but I couldn’t think of any thing, so I just kept standing there and then they said we’d have to do it later because the concert was starting. I complained that I didn’t have a way home until the UPS guy came back to get me and they let me sit backstage. Meanwhile, I was missing work.

Last night and old friend Jonathan and his wife were at this place with Zach and I for some reason. We were staying there for a while, but I don’t know why. The next morning Jonathan and I were driving through the mountains. I kept asking why we didn’t have our spouses with us. He said it was because I had to deal with something that happened before they were in our lives. I didn’t understand. It was almost like his was an angel forcing me to deal with past issues. Finally we get to this church. Turns out many of Jonathan’s friends (all girls) from our church days together went to this church and I was suppose to talk to them about why we never got a long. It seemed they thought I was a bitch and I thought the same of them. I’d only ever wanted to fit in and I never did. I woke up in the middle of our conversation.

I’m pretty amazed that my past seems to be filtering through my dreams, tossed in with a bit of my present. It’s like my subconscious is trying weed out the past. I’m kinda enjoying it. Typically, I only remember scary dreams that wake me up and make me wake Zach up, so it’s nice to remember some fun, stress-free dreams. 🙂