Curious

I feel like writing today. I haven’t felt like writing in quite a while, but I don’t know what to write about. Life is pretty uneventful lately. I seem to be spending most of my time depressed and hiding from the world. I went through a depression spell once where all I did was work, eat, sleep…..literally nothing in between. I don’t know why my parents didn’t freak out. At least this time, its just feelings….I’m still able to function in the world and interact and no one knows the difference. But I do tend to steer clear of friends and gatherings and I don’t feel like writing.

Today I’m happy. I don’t know why. Nothing has changed from yesterday, but non-the-less I’m happy.


I was discussing my phone-phobia with a co-worker today. This co-worker has known me for about six years and we became so close that there was a running joke that we were married (we fought a lot, but still were close and good friends), now that we work in different departments he is labeled my ex-husband….oh, I’m getting side-tracked. Anyway, I’ve recently “come out” about my phone-phobia. I don’t generally discuss it with people, but I’m starting to recognize it as a real problem and I don’t know where it came from.

Here’s the problem….I will not answer the home phone. I rarely answer my cell phone. I will not call people, if some one needs to be called I make my husband do it. We have caller-id, so I always know who is calling and it’s not that I don’t want to talk to the person or I don’t like them or anything like that….I just don’t want to be on the phone. Now, if you are lucky enough to get me on the phone, I don’t have a problem talking for hours upon hours, but you have to get me on the phone first.

There are a few exceptions to “my fear.” I have no problems answering the phone and talking to Zach or calling him. In fact, I do it all the time and probably drive him crazy. If I’m “working,” whether at home or in the office, again, no problems….in fact I sometimes prefer it over email. So why is it that I can’t pick up the phone and call my parents? Can’t answer the phone when my good friend calls? Get really anxious when I have to call people back? WhY? I really don’t understand this problem, but it is a problem.


People have asked that I continue “My Love Story”…I will try, but it gets a little boring after we got married. 🙂 Zach keeps telling me he is going to work on his, but he works full-time and has four classes this semester, so it might not be until this summer. If you haven’t begun “My Love Story,” it’s pretty much a book, so you probably won’t read it in one sitting and should get working on that. 🙂 You can find the link at the top or right side.


Since I’ve gained three pounds since New Years, I’m really on a diet, well WW. I picked this up on Monday and so far I’ve been good. I’m allowed 20 points a day and get 35 extra points. Each day I’ve eaten a bit over my 20 points, but today was the highest at 25 and that is because I went out to lunch with the work folk. Which, by the way, if you live in the Denver area, Bull & Bush makes some yummy french fries. 🙂 I decided I can obsess about losing weight, it might do me good. Since I’ve not been to the gym in a two weeks, I decided to focus on my food intake first and get that under control and build the gym back in after that. It’s just been so cold….too cold for the gym and I need something to do or I think too much. Sob, sob. I know. My own private symphony.

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Burning

I finally finished Fahrenheit 451 today. It’s taken me a couple of months, mainly because I don’t particularly care for the way Ray Bradbury writes. But the ideas presented in the book are great, but what I was really amazed at was the fact that the book was written in the ’50s. It’s amazing how closely our reality IS the future Bradbury wrote about. I’m not writing my review of 451 yet, but I thought I would share. Bradbury end the book with a couple of paragraphs that parallel Ecclesiastes 3. I laughed as I read it, because a few pages before pages before Montag (the main character) had meet up with the outcast and banished people who had “book” knowledge. They had asked him what he had to offer and he said the book of Ecclesiastes, but that he couldn’t remember it anymore. He read it once, but it was gone. And yet, it is the book of Ecclesiastes that is echoing in his head as the city is bombed. (Okay, way to much info if you haven’t read the book, but if you haven’t read it yet, chances are you never will….or maybe this intrigued you enough to make you.)


Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heave: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to get and a time to lose; a time to keep and a time to cast away; a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

I know it sound funny, but I’ve heard those verses all my life, but I needed them today. And they found me, even if I wasn’t reading the Bible. God sends his messages, we just have to have the ears to hear and the willingness to listen.


I ran across this video today. It’s been hiding on my old camera since my birthday, but Lexi is so cute with the balloon I thought I’d share.

Irked

I was steaming mad when I got home from the gym last night. I went to a class….first 45 minutes you use the step and weights and then the last 15 is ab work on a mat. Well, I always show up early so that I can have a nice spot and don’t have to fight my way in. Last night I choose the back row, one spot away from the side left mirror. A person could fit over to the left of me or in front, but not behind.

At the 45 minutes mark, he give us a “breather” to put weights/or step away and get a mat. I grabbed my weights and left my step, against the wall are my coat, water and keys. It is obviously my area. I get back with my mat and some older 40ish man has taken then spot behind my step and in front of my stuff. In front of my step some teenage boy has put his mat. I threw my mat on top of my step and started to mess with it with I muttered. Then I decided I would go up front, so I grab my mat and throw it on the floor up front. I walk to the back of the room and grab my towel and water, which are behind the person who took my spot and went up front. Had I just moved my step and working in that spot I would have been hitting (or they would have been hitting me) in the face and legs during different movements. I was throwing a bit of a fit, I’m sure they noticed, for I kept glaring at both of them, but did either one say, “Oh, I’m sorry, did I take your spot.” No, they just rudely sat there like they owned the world!

I’ve been going to that class off and on for the last year and a half. And have been the last several weeks and have never seen either one of these guys. MEN and BOYS should not go to classes at the gym if they can not respect the unspoken rules of courtosey! Ooooo…….I glared at those guys after class too. I was HOT!

And then I get home and that microwave we installed two months ago….yep, it doesn’t work. So of course, that drives me more insane so I get in bed and refuse to eat. Poor Zach. Sometimes if I get pregnant he is going to have a crazy woman on his hands. We called GE today and they are suppose to send someone out on Thursday! We have to wait until Thursday to see if whatever problem it is is covered under warranty or if we are SOL and have to buy a new fricken microwave. UGH!

But it is Friday night, I haven’t gotten out of my PJ’s yet and I should relax….maybe go to Sweet Tomato for dinner. I’ve got tons of schoolwork due tomorrow, so I have to find some way to get over work and life stress. Deep breaths…deep breaths.

Oh…I have updated my Project 365….so don’t forget to check it out.

Quick

I have a few minutes before I have to leave for the gym, so I thought I’d write. 🙂 We had a busy, but not busy weekend. On Friday night, my sister invited us over to Mom and Dad’s to have dinner. I’ve posted the recipe here.

It was great, even if we showed up at 6:45 and didn’t eat until 8. We had a great time. After dinner we sat at the table and ended up playing with Muffin.

Muffin is my mom’s dog. She is a Maltapoo and so smart. My dad has taught her these tricks: sneeze, sit, rollover, wave bye-bye, scratch my foot, put your head down (she has to relax for this one, which is hard for her) and jump (where she jumps into your hands, both mom and dad have trouble bending over, so this one is important). Anyway, she was being cute and I tried to get her picture, but she is so afraid of the camera, it’s amazing. She will not look at it if she knows it’s there.

Anyway, here is muffin and Zach because I thought it was cute:

And this is Mom….she has decided she doesn’t want me to dye her hair anymore and is going gray. I don’t know if I’m ready for it, but she is.

If you want to see Lexi stuck in the doggie door, you’ll have to visit Day 11.

On Saturday we sat around and watched the Hallmark channel most of the day. I was a bit moody and being difficult, but we did manage to go get Russ and Susie and see the Mammoth Game. The Colorado Mammoth are our Indoor Lacrosse team and my favorite sport to attend. Susie and I talked most of the game and paid little attention, but what are good friends to do when they haven’t seen each other in ages. 🙂

After the game we went to Colorado Diner. It’s right across the street from the school I went to for six year, but somehow I never went there. It was pretty good and since we had my camera and Susie’s we spent most of the time taking photos. Russ and Zach had the camera’s for a while and we ended up with a bunch of melting ice, so I will spare you those….and somehow I’ve miss placed my favorite of Russ, but that’s okay, maybe you’ll get it later.

Yesterday we didn’t do much, but we were gone most of the day. Let’s see…we rushed to get to a lunch at Old Chicago with Zach’s fantasy football league from work, only to realize no one was there. Panic! Called Mom to see if she could log into Zach’s account and see if we had the time or place or both wrong…that didn’t work. So we went to Zach’s dad’s apartment, which was like five minutes away to use the internet. Found out that it didn’t start for another 15 minutes (an hour after he thought). After visiting with his dad a bit, we went back to Old Chicago and had an almost free lunch. Rushed home to get the dogs and take them to the dog park. Guinness caused problems immediately, so Zach took him back to the car and Lexi and I walked the “circle,” it’s actually, and beautiful dog park part of the state park and it’s huge! You can’t really see the other side of the “circle,” anyway….once we got back to the top, Zach and Guinness were there and since it wasn’t too crowded, we decided to head down to the water….Lexi off-leash and Guinness on-leash, right next to Zach. Lexi had a blast….don’t know about Guinness. 🙂

This is one of my new favorite Lexi pics:

And here is poor Guinness:

As we were walking back, I was noticing the shadows, so I tried to get a family shadow photo. This was the best:

Oh….yes….the sunset was pretty….I love having the mountains to the west…see, Denver is not in the mountains:

Lexi hurt her paw, cut her pad, and was acting sad in the car. I asked her if she wanted to come sit with me and sure enough, she did. So she climbed up in the front seat and sat on my lab. This is something she NEVER does. It was pretty funny and Zach tried to get a picture, but he was driving, so it’s not that best.

Whenever we get home from the dog park, the dogs know they get a bath. If we don’t grab their collars before we walk in the door, they run to the cage and won’t come out. But once we get them upstairs, they will walk into the bathroom and put themselves in the tub. Good thing, cause trying to lift a 50 and 80 pound dog into something they don’t want is next to impossible for me. 🙂 After the bath they always clean each other. Here is a pic of Lexi being a good sister:

And finally, a photo of me….Zach has figured out the camera, and was enjoying himself yesterday. 🙂 I think he was trying out the rule of thirds….

Ghost

I walked in the house yesterday after working out and out of the corner of my eye, I saw a ghost outside.  Freaked me out, but I went about my business: let the dogs out, took a shower…  In the shower I thought about it more and got more and more freaked out.  Really not a good time to be home alone.  Then, when I was cooking dinner I looked up again, and there is that darn ghost!  I took a couple deep breaths.  It’s okay.

When I told my mom, sister and Zach this story at dinner last night they all looked at me like I was crazy, as I’m sure you all are thinking now as well.  Actually, it was my reflection and I knew this, but for some weird reason my head was telling me it was a ghost.  Thankfully, no weird ghost dreams last night. 🙂

Zach says he is working on his version of our love story.  He says he will get it done by the time he goes back to school, which is Jan 21st.  I think he might need a bit of motivation, so if you want to see it, I think you should go comment on his about me section of his page….here.  I’m quite interested to see it, but I’m the nagging wife….you are the readers….much more influence.

Oh, and I am updating my Project 365 page, it’s going through almost daily make-overs, but I’ll figure it out soon, but you can check it out through the cycle.  🙂

Forgot

I forgot one, from my list yesterday….

Floss my teeth at least three times a week, preferrably more.

Maybe two…take my vitamin every day.

Or three…drink four bottles (64oz) of water a day.

 

I’m happy.  The last few days I’ve just been happy.  I don’t know why, but I am and I’m going to enjoy it.  Maybe it’s all the good stuff I’m doing for me…(see life changes list).  Even yesterday I had a rough work day, busy, problems, etc, but I was still happy….weird.  I typically get to involved.

Susie comes on Thursday!  I’m super happy about that.  I will only see her probably once, but that is good for me.  Gosh, I think it was last Christmas (2006) that she was out here.  And then she’s moving back sometime towards the end of summer.  It’ll be so good to have her here.  Susie would be my bestest friend.  We met years and year and years ago.  In fact, if I figure correctly it would be 24 years ago!  WOW.  I was three, she was four.  She moved in up the street and we were pretty close forevermore after that.  Even though we are only six months apart, she was always a year ahead of me in school, which I think ended up being a good thing.  Anyway, unlike me, she completed college in four years and has been working on her PhD at Dartmouth University in some sort of science cell stuff.  Ha!  Can you tell I’m not a science person?  Six years ago, I drove her across the country to go to school.  Somehow we managed not to kill each other, or die of other random causes (refusing to sleep but drive anyway, Ohio gas stations late-late night, lost in south Chicago…basically being two young girls traveling crosscountry alone).  Word on the street is that she is about to complete her PhD, I don’t know much about these things, but it seems you don’t know for sure until you are really done.  But she is making plans to be back here.  It’ll be new and different….things won’t be the same, but it’ll still be good to have her back around.  I miss her!  A few month back I posted about our adventure in New Hampshire, complete with a video of the two of us….you can see that here….you may not want to watch the whole thing (it’s a bit on the long side, 16 minutes I think), but you’ll know us well enough in the beginning bit.  🙂

Gym

I went to the gym three days last week!  YAY!

On Wednesday I went to Step and Abs – 60 minutes total.

On Thursday I went to Core Central and Abs – 60 minutes total.

On Friday I did the eliptical machine – 60 minutes total.

I skipped the weekend….but I went back today, even in the snow.  Pilates for 60 minutes.

I haven’t decided what I’m going to do tomorrow, but I will go.

Life changes for the year, include: going more to gym to get in shape, eat better, lose some weight, read more books (less TV and Internet), Project 365, find a church and go, read the Bible with Zach….yep I think that about sums them up.  I don’t like to call them new years resolutions because those last for January and these I want to last longer, so they are life changes. 🙂

Back to school today.  I really do enjoy it and hate it all in one. 🙂  But I do like it more, I think I need something to keep me occupied.

Bring it on…

We had a great New Years Eve.  Amazing considering all the stress that was surrounding it just the day before.  As I reminder, I’d told my sister we did not was to go to her boyfriends house for New Years Eve as we felt it would be awkward, yet we still had nothing to do.

A funny thing happened on Monday, Jennie (one of Zach’s friends from high school’s wife) emailed Zach and asked if we wanted to come over to drink and play games.  It was strange because Zach hardly ever checks his email, but happened to be logged in at that very moment and talking to me on the phone.  We quickly made the decision to go to there house, it is only about five minutes from our house and we always have fun with them.  Maybe some day I should write about that…..but not right now.

We were the first to arrive, but the party was fairly small….five people total….but we had a lot of fun.  We played what I refer to as President, but most other people have a bad name for it and make fun of me.  Then we played Apples to Apples.  When Zach and Josh brought in the champagne, they decided to put it in the freezer, so when the countdown began and it was time for toasting, we had frozen champagne and it gave it a bit of a funny flavor, but still my favorite.

Frozen Champagne in Margarita glasses:

Tim (Jennie’s work friend):

Lorena (Jennie’s other work friend):

Josh and Zach:

Jennie and Me:

Since I had quite a lot to drink, my tummy was upset, so we ordered a pizza to help it out.  It worked a little bit, but I still kept walking and moving and staying up right, even when we got home at two, Zach was passed out, I stayed up on the computer for quite a while and then sat in bed and watch TV.  I got to bed sometime after three and woke up the next morning at seven….watched some more TV – CSI: Miami and then decided we should see an early movie, because if you go before noon tickets are only $5.

I woke Zach up and convinced him it was a good idea and we went to see National Treasure.  I liked it.  That’s about where I go in my movie reviews….maybe Zach will review it on his site in a few days.  We then went to my parents and asked my mom to fix a hole in Zach’s new jeans that she just hemmed a week or so ago.  She said okay, but wanted us to stay until she was done.  I was so tired by this point, so I laid on the couch.  Zach was tired too, and used the recliner on the end of the couch.  Dad put on his DVD of the book of John, and soon we were out for several hours….Dad shut all the blinds and they (mom and dad) disappeared.  It was sunny when I went to sleep and dark when I woke up.  Man that was a good little nap. 🙂

I wasn’t ready for 2008, but bring it on…I’m ready for it now.

Surprise…

This is an email I just received from upper management in the company I work for:

I am pleased to announce that Mary ** and Jennifer ** are the December winners of the “Achieve Awards” – our monthly sales team nominated award program that recognizes individual excellence by demonstrating core values and impact to our business through integrity, service, reliability, and innovation. Both winners will be receiving a $100 American Express gift card in recognition of their excellence!

Mary and Jennifer have significantly supported the company’s transformation by leveraging their industry knowledge and enhancing the overall client experience! Please join me in congratulating them for their outstanding contributions!

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Jennifer is a Senior Sales Support associate and plays a critical role specifically for Shari **’s account team. Aside from the more traditional aspects of a sales support associate, Jennifer spends a great deal of time working on customized reports that bring tremendous value to her team. She prepares two different forecast reports each month that helps the team better track and forecast revenue streams for their clients. She prepares a customized pipeline report for the group each week and a revenue tracking document each month. She created a detailed program to establish membership for [Specific Customer]. This process not only includes membership but the exchange of information that must be shared with [Specific Customer], [Specific Customer]’s decision engine provider and corporate. She created another process to track delinquency, termination for non-payment and reactivation. Jennifer has willingly shared these customized reports with other account teams. Mostly recently, Jennifer agreed to take on the additional responsibility outside of her immediate area for file investigations supporting [Specific Customer]. Jennifer consistently identifies ways to improve processes and create efficiencies. She is eager and willing to support the team at any time. Jennifer does remarkable work and we appreciate all that she does for us.

Congratulations, Mary and Jennifer! We appreciate your support and our customers acknowledge the value you bring to our sales efforts!

A very nice New Year Surprise. 🙂