Fantasy?

I was happy all day.  My husband comes home and I get depressed.  I’m not depressed that he is here, but something is definitely bothering me.  I can’t even figure out what it is.  And now I’m stuck, up past my bed time doing this stupid fantasy football draft.  Whoever thought football was fun and picking players you know nothing about would be fun.  I’m just getting in a worse and worse mood. 

Wanna know something funny?  I’ve noticed tonight that Zach is more affectionate when he is drafting for fantasy.  Yes, at the moment he isn’t paying any attention to me, but occasionally he’ll turn around and run his hand through my hair.  He hardly ever does that.  I wonder if doing something he enjoys makes him happy and it spreads the happiness.  But if that’s the case then I don’t really make him happy and that is very sad.  Hmmm.

I’m tired.  I just want to crawl into bed.  I think we’ve still got an hour.  This is miserable.  And Zach is so into it.  Doing research and whatnot.  Not me.  Takes me two seconds to decide who I want.  Football is stupid!

August 30, 2007

So people have asked recently “Are you trying to have a baby?” I always interpret the question, “Are you having unprotected sex and lots of it?” Hmmm……funny how having a baby is an okay question to ask, but the other one, is well, not a typical question people ask.

Well, let me answer that question….YES.  🙂  For about two/three weeks.  There is something fabulous about not caring if you get pregnant and just being able to go with the moment.  I know, probably too much info for some of you, but tough, it’s the truth.

Dinner with a Friend

Yesterday I went to dinner with Keri.  She kept asking me why I was so quiet and I don’t really know.  It’s like I’m a different person when I work in the office all day.  I’m quiet, withdrawn and slow.  When I was a teacher, that never really happened.  I think I was always a bit private (withdrawn) until people got to know me, but overall, I wasn’t quiet and generally wasn’t slow.  I processed things at a faster speed.   Keri would tell you that I still couldn’t multitask, but my multitasking abilities and hers just differ.  She has an uncanny ability to stay focused on one thing while doing something else, but I can get distracted and have to pause to regroup.  I don’t know if that made any sense, if you know us both, it probably does. 🙂

Ahh…this post began with dinner with a friend.  Keri and I are so different.  School brought us together and through her I still keep in touch with that world.  I love it.  I miss teaching, but I don’t.  I’m sure it’s like any job.  But ultimately, I want to go back and I want to go back to Gateway.  Keri and I were talking last night about the fact that Gateway has the perfect population 30/30/30/10…..and for those who want to know what those numbers stand for it’s race: black/white/hispanic/other.  I guess some of the new teachers weren’t prepared for the diversity and don’t like it and are already planning on leaving.  Can you imagine, being three weeks into a job and knowing you want to leave, but having to wait 9 months?  And 9 months in the teaching world is much longer than 9 months in the business world.

On Writing….shhh….don’t tell Stephen King I stole the name of his book. :-)

I’ve really been in the writing mood lately.  Maybe it’s because I’m home alone a lot, work in a small office when I decide to go in and so have a very unsocial life.  Whatever it is I can’t stop thinking about writing at the moment and I don’t even have anything inparticular that I want to write about.

I was reading two different blogs today, one Dilbert Blog from the author of Dilbert, the other Photo Matt from the founder of WordPress.   I find both very interesting.  But I began to wonder…..what would it be like to just write blogs and travel for a living.  Maybe I need to start a new Blog site for travelers and spend my time traveling and speaking…..haha.  That would be funny.  Like I have anything to contribute to the world in that capacity.  I do think it would be a blast to have my own successful business that allowed me to travel, but with my interests, I don’t know where that successful business with flexible schedule will come from.  And the instability of my own business would be my own worst enemy.

I was watching this show on, oh gosh, like TLC or HDTV or something like that, but this guy buys expensive houses, remodels them and then sells them.  He’s a bit of a perfectionist and has a house full or people who work for him.  I’ve only seen the show like twice, but in the eposides I saw, he had to sell his house in order to complete a project and buy another house to work on.  If the house didn’t sell, his company wouldn’t have any money.  He was trying to talk his partner into doing the same thing.  Yes, that’s what he likes to do and he enjoys it, but man I couldn’t handle the stress and I think a lot of privately owned business start out like that.  Every penny you have goes to making the business run and if you have a bit extra for food, you are the lucky one of the hour.

Welcome to WordPress.

I’ve spent my day importing all my old journals into WordPress. I know I’m still missing a few that are on myspace, but I think I got most of them. It’s odd to go back through my writings. I’ve noticed that’s I’ve written a lot more this year than any other year and I don’t know why that is. Maybe it’s because I’m finally enjoying writing, maybe it’s because I have more time, or maybe it’s just I’m more reflective and have found that the computer always listens and is always there. If I’m happy, excited, depressed or angry, the computer is still here without judgment. Hmmm……

I like WordPress so far. Viewer tracking is great. The difference between posts and pages is great. The ease of use is great. Yep, I’m glad I went this direction. I’ll try to convert people over after a while, but that rarely happens, so…..oh well.

Lunch Break!

I love working from home!!!! I worked from home all this week and it is just so relaxing. I do just as much work, if not more, but I’m not as stressed. It’s funny. I love it so much. Not to mention I get AMAZING lunch breaks with my husband. That’s a bonus. 🙂

About (Aug 2007)

Hello! Welcome to my WordPress. It’s the end of August 2007 and for a variety of reasons, I’ve decided to give WordPress a try. I’m hoping I love it and will finally be satisfied with my blogging medium.

While your here….please take a moment to sign my guestbook.

I’m 26. Grew up in the same house until I was 23 and married my husband. We bought a house about a two years ago and enjoy (haha) all the work that comes with it. We’ve done little home improvements over the years and are very happy with our house. We both enjoy growing things. I enjoy the houseplants, okay, pretty much any plants and am planning a herb garden for next year. Zach on the other hand, loves keeping up the yard and making his grass green and growing tomatoes for spaghetti sauce. Next year he wants to expand the garden, I don’t know why because he doesn’t like most veggies. 🙂

We don’t have any kids yet, but we will someday….in God’s timing. We do have two dogs that keep us quite busy. Lexi is about 4 years old and is a yellow lab-sharpei mix. She is mainly my dog and was our first baby. Guinness came along a year later when we moved into our house, because Lexi needed a playmate and Guinness’ owners were giving him away. He is a 1 1/2 younger than Lexi and just for the record, he came with his name, we had nothing to do with it. Lexi is hyper and playful and Guinness is quite and thoughtful. We love our dogs, as you can tell from my posts. We also have a bunch of Goldfish that are six inches big and a garter snake, Jake, that Zach found in the yard last year.

I have my teaching license and taught high school English, Journalism and Newspaper last year. This year I’m taking a break to go back and get my master’s in eLearning. We are barley two weeks in, but I’m loving it so far. I still volunteer at the high school and help with the Newspaper. It’s my way of staying involved and keeping in touch with my students and co-workers, plus I think I provide a bit of a stress cushion for the teacher.

My family:

School Update:

Have I told you all about school yet? I don’t believe I have. I absolutely LOVE it!!! I have amazing teacher, great classmates, interesting content and best of all I get to go to school anytime I want! Yep, this is the life. :-)So, I was all upset last year with some things APS wanted us to do. Couldn’t get on board and you know what. 1 1/2 weeks of a masters program that has nothing to do with English and everything they wanted me to do last year makes 100% sense and I want to go do it. Amazing. They aren’t even trying to get me to accept those ideas, it just happened. Maybe it’s the “workshop” model that is so effectively done in this class. And if you don’t teach in APS, I know you are completely lost now, let’s just say ASP isn’t as stupid as I once thought, they just need to provide a bit more support and not cram it down everyone’s throat.

It’s great to be learning with people who want to learn and it’s great to be learning something I enjoy so much. Why I ever majored in something I wasn’t this interested and excited about I don’t know. Maybe I’m getting old, maybe I’m just finally finding myself. 🙂