email 11.28.99 // Hello!

From: Jenn
To: Meredith T.
Date: 11.28.1999

Hey Merri!  Thanks for inviting me out to lunch the other day, unfortunately I was house-sitting and didn’t get your message until about 3 in the afternoon.  I do miss you all and we should go and do something.  I would write you and tell you more right now, but I have an essay to write tonight and I haven’t even started it.  How’s church?  Are you still talking to that guy from Colorado Springs?  It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you and I’m sure a lot has changed.  I will try to either call you or write you more later this week.  My weekdays are a lot less stressful than my weekends.  I’ll talk to you later.

Jenn

email 11.27.99 // Re: to our friendship

From: Jenn
To: Jeremy
Date: 11.27.1999

Dear Jeremy,

I’m sorry it has taken me so long to respond.  I’ve been pretty busy this week and finding a moment to sit and write when I wouldn’t be interrupted was impossible.  In fact even now it seems impossible.  I’ve been down here working on my essays for Monday for over two hours without any interruptions, yet as soon as I decided to take a break and write an e-mail both my mom and Stacy come down to bother me.  I really don’t know what this world is coming to. :o)  Anyway, thank you for writing that last e-mail.  I have to say your first one was quite upsetting.  I believe the only real question you had in that e-mail was about our relationship slipping.  Maybe slipping wasn’t the best word, but I didn’t really know what other word to use.  I just have been feeling that our relationship isn’t as strong as it used to be.  I’m sure a large part of that is due to school and work, but it still isn’t the same.  That’s about the best way that I can explain it.  I hope tht’s okay.  I’m sorry I didn’t get to talk to you on Monday night.  I was upstairs talking to Susie when you were talking to Nathan and then we had to go.  Susie and I had a great time house-sitting.  And in a way I guess it made me want to get an apartment or something, but realistically that isn’t possible right now.  Did I tell you I got a new job?  I can’t remember.  I start on Tuesday.  My hours are shorter, but I will be making more money per hour, so I should end up making about the same amount of money as I was at the daycare center.  I’m going to miss the kids terribly, but I will probably go and visit.  I’m going to try to talk to Jessica about when she is going out of Wisconsin and see if I can move my trip to the same time.  I think it would be fun to go out with her and visit you and everyone inWisconsin Rapids.  Well, I think my break from my essays has been long enough.  I’ll talk to you later.

Jenn

email 11.27.99 // {no subject}

From: Jenn
To: Mr. Stewart
Date: 11.27.1999

Hey Stewart!

Yes it’s true I not have a steady boyfriend.  His name is Nathan and he went to Highlands Ranch High School.  Susie says that his face looks like Clark Kent’s, but I don’t know if I agree.  I think he is just average looking.  He is a month younger than me.  Quinbie loves him, but I think Nathan is a bit more scared of her.  he laughs a lot.

I heard Kris came in to see you the other day.  Have a lot of people come back to visit?  I thought about stopping by this week, but I’ve been so busy I knew it wouldn’t happen.  Susie and I were staying at her sisters house while her sister was in Mexico.  We had a lot of fun, but we stayed up really late every night.  Last night Nathan and I went to the Nuggets game.  It was a blast.  Afterwards we went and got some food and then we went to the park and played until about 1AM.  It was like being a little kid again.  It was so much fun.

Well I’ve got to be going.  I have two essays I have to get done by Monday and guess what?  I haven’t even started.  Oh well, I will get them done and then I will only have five more essays to write this semester.  Yes!!!  Maybe I will come and visit after finals.  I shouldn’t be too busy.  Remember to keep in touch.  I think writing me should be a weekly homework assignmetn for you. :o)  Top priority!!

Jenn

email 11.25.99 // Happy Thanksgiving!

From: Jenn
To: Nathan
Date: 11.25.1999

Dear Nathan,

I hope your having a wonderful Thanksgiving day.  So far mine has been great.  Not like I’ve done much, basically all I’ve done is gotten ready.  That’s okay.  I like getting dressed up and doing my hair and make-up, so that’s exactly what I did.  Getting Susie out of bed is a real challenge, so I had a couple hours to myself.  Sure, I could have done my school work, but that would have been too logical.  :o)  I really have enjoyed talking to you the past couple of days.  I think we are beginning to get on Susie’s nerves and I also think that she is jealous of you.  She keeps making comments like she feel like the third wheel and that you are taking her place.  I don’t think that is true.  You are both so different that neither one of you could take the others place.  Well I guess I should go.  Have a great, super, terrific day and tell your family Hello for me.  I will call you when I get back to Brenda’s.

Love,
Jennifer

email 11.24.99 // Nothing to do…

From: Jenn
To: Nathan
Date: 11.24.1999

Hi Nathan!  How are you doing?  Something seemed to be bothering you tonight when we stopped by.  I felt like maybe I gave you the wrong impression tonight.  I said that Susie made me go in to Home Depot, almost like I isn’t want to see you, but that wasn’t it at all.   I did want to see you, yet it just didn’t seem like the right place.  I don’t like bothering people at work.  After we left Susie said that she was very sorry for taking me in there, but Susie is always sorry for something.  Well Susie needs to use the phone, so maybe I’ll finish this later.

Love,
Jenn

email 11.21.99 // Re: Hey from Crystal

From: Jenn
To: Crystal
Date: 11.21.1999

Hey Crystal!

It sounds like you are having a ton of fun.  I’m glad.  I guess everything is over between you and Keith, huh? :o)  Everything is over between me and Jeremy, the guy from Wisconsin that I went to prom with.  I decided I wanted to define our relationship, so I told him that we were just friends and then told him about my boyfriend.  I don’t think he is too happy, but I decided it was best for me to tell him than to let him think there was still a possibility for us to someday get together.  I don’t think I’ve told you about my boyfriend, Nathan, have I?  Well, I’ll give you the short version and just tell you the best details…

Well, on the first day of school I was looking at all the people in my class and trying to learn names and everything and for some reason I was really attracted to this one guy.  He wasn’t really great looking, but there was just something about him that I felt drawn too.  Over the weeks I tried to talk to him every now and then, but I always felt like he didn’t want to talk to me.  Within this time I had been asked out by several other guys, but they either weren’t Christians or they were too girl crazy.  Anyway one Monday about 5 weeks ago, Nathan, the guy I was attracted to was talking to me on the lightrail and when we came to his stop, he stood up and tried to hand me a piece of paper.  I told him I didn’t want it because I thought it was a piece of trash or something.  He eventually just threw it at me and got off the bus.  I read it and I felt so guilty for not taking it.  It was a poem that he wrote to me about how much he liked me and would like to get to know me better.  I was so amazed.  Never have I really liked and guy and had him like me back.  I either liked the guy and he didn’t like me and he liked me and then I started to like him because he liked me.  Anyway, I didn’t know what to do.  I finally worked up the courage to call him and he wasn’t home so I had to leave a message.  He called back that night at 11 and work up my family, but it was okay.  He told me he would just call me back later.  We never got in touch until Wednesday, but then we started talking and getting to know each other.  Anyway, I’ll cut out a lot of the details or this e-mail might be 20 pages long, but I found out that he’s a Christan and has a great personality and view on life.  I love being around him and he seems to love being around me.  On my birthday we finally made things official or actually told each other that we thought of the other one as a boyfriend and girlfriend.  It’s still a strange thought for me.  I look at him and I have to tell myself that he is my boyfriend and he cares about me.  I have this tendency to push people away when they get too close.  I don’t think he will be scared off by that though.  Anyway, on Wednesday we went to the Av’s game.  The tickets were $105 and we were the second row away from the Av’s players bench.  It was so much fun, but I didn’t get home until midnight and then I had to go to work at 7.  I was so tired, but it was worth it.  Anyway, we always go out and do things together and we’re always on the phone.  Well, that’s my story.  I hope to hear from you soon.  We still need to set a date when we can go do something together.  Maybe over winter break or something.  Let me know.  Oh, I also have a different e-mail address if you would like to change it, it’s ….. Talk to you later.

Love ya,
Jennifer

email 11.23.99 // Just a little Good Morning!

From: Jenn
To: Nathan
Date: 11.23.1999

Dear Nathan,

As I was falling asleep last night I was thinking about how much I’m going to miss seeing you the next couple of days.  I’m sorry for falling asleep on you last night.  I guess that means that I’m really comfortable around you.  Usually I can keep myself awake if I’m around people.  Susie couldn’t believe I made you get off the computer and then I feel asleep, but I guess if it really bothered you you could have woken me up.  I had a really great time being close to you last night.  I think I’m going to have to send this because I keep blanking out and thinkgin about the other things.  Susie says Hi and she would like to know what you think of “dear Jeremy.” Her words not mine.  I’ll talk to you later.

Love,
Jennifer

email 11.21.99 // Boyfriend

From: Jenn
To: Mr. Stewart
Date: 11.21.1999

Stewart~

I haven’t heard from you in a while, what’s been happening?  I heard from Brandon the other day.  He said that he is having fun up in Washington, but he misses home.

I’m so glad I decided to go to Metro.  I’m house-sitting this week and my mom was having a really hard time letting me go.  I can’t imagine how hard it would have been to leave for months.  I finally decided to discuss my relationship with Jeremy.  I wrote him a letter telling him how I didn’t know where he saw our relationship going, but that I have decided that will we only be friends and that nothing more could ever come out of our relationship.  He doesn’t seem to be too happy about this, but I just don’t think we were meant for each other.  I’ve also postponed my trip out there.  I might go with two of my other friends in the middle of January, but I’m staying home for Christmas break.

I do have a boyfriend now.  I guess that was probably a big factor in my decisions concerning Jeremy.  I believe I told you about the guy who wrote me a poem and gave it to me on the lightrail.  Well, we’ve been doing almost everything together for the past month.  Yes, he is rich, well he has a lot of money, but I don’t know when you will get to meet him.  You might have to wait a long, long time. :o)  He’s met Mom, Dad, Stacy and Susie and they all really like him, so I think you would too.

I’ve been doing pretty good at school.  All my grades are between an A and a B.  Did you ever red the book Growing up Latino or The Lone Ranger and Tonto Fist Fight in Heaven for Contemp. Lit.?  We read both of them in first year seminar and they both seems really familiar so I thought you might have read them.

Well, I really need to get back to my work.  I’m getting really good at procrastinating and only doing enough to get by.  But I’ve got a lot due tomorrow and not much time to get it done, so I’ll talk to you alter.  Have a good Thanksgiving.

Jenn

email 11.19.99 // Hello!

From: Jenn
To: Jeremy
Date: 11.19.1999

Hi Jeremy.  Yes, last night I was asleep until you called.  I am not trying to avoid you like you said, I have just been really busy and I’m not going to be at home all next week.  I see absolutely no reason why we can’t continue to be friends.  I never thought that would be a problem.  I just felt like I needed to let you know some things.  My feelings for you haven’t changed.  You are still my friend and I hope you always will be.  Well I need to get to bed, I had a long day at school and I’m really tired.  Talk to you later.

Jenn

email 11.19.99 // Thanks for the wonderful afternoon!

From: Jenn
To: Nathan
Date: 11.19.99

Dear Nathan,

First let me thank you for the wonderful afternoon.  I hate departing.  I don’t know if you can tell, but I really love being around you.  Even if we’re not doing anything but sitting or driving.  Every moment I spend with you bring me so much joy.

Last night I said I was waiting for you to change your mind and then you wrote saying you get mixed signals.  They are so closely related I decided to talk to you about them.  I think what has happened in the past with a lot of my friendships is that people began to get too close and so my “natural” instinct was to push them away and it worked.  I am not thrilled that I do this.  I am so glad that you are willing to work with me.  I want you to know that you have become a true friend.  I share with you almost everything, the stuff you miss out on is me going on and on about you, but in the opposite way I talk about Jeremy.  Anyway, now that I’ve gotten a little off the subject, let me say that I find it very comforting and reassuring that you are willing to work on whatever needs to be worked on instead of just dropping the relationship.  You’ve told me this several times, but sometimes I need to hear things about 20 to actually understand and apply what has been said.  Thanks for being patient.  I just need a lot of reassurance.

Let me rephrase my last statement about holding hands and being close.  I don’t want you to be concerned about me fainting. :o)  I’ve actually never fainted and I don’t suppose I will.  I would probably get a little lightheaded, just like I do when I read your letters.  I think that’s why I have to read them several times, is because I just blank out at certain spots.  I would love to someday curl up next to you when seeing a movie, and I know someday it will happen.

Well, I’m starting to fall asleep and it’s only 9:20PM!  It sounds like Garrett won’t be coming tomorrow, but his roommate and friend from across the hall will be.  I’ve never met them so it will be interesting.  I hope you have managed to stay out of trouble tonight and have an awesome day at work tomorrow.  I’ll be counting the minutes till we see each other again.  Talk to you later.

Jenn